Maybe it's because I've been watching way too many episodes of Grey's Anatomy lately. (Seriously, the show hits on way too many triggers for me--family issues, pancreatic cancer, dead mother, organ donation, people going nuts in the hospital. Seriously. Seriously!)
Or maybe it's a delayed reaction to all of the heart openers we did in class this morning.
Or maybe it's because I've spent a lot of time this week going through old belongings--sorting them, donating them, throwing them away.
Or maybe it's just because it's December--the month of my grandfather's birthday, my grandmother's death, family celebrations... and now we're in the post-holiday let down.
Whatever it is, I'm just a little blue today.
2011 has been a great year in a lot of ways. I focused on myself and on my fitness. (I promise, I'll write a real post about those accomplishments.) I've started working towards finding more balance in my life--although that's still a work in progress. But It's a start. My yoga practice has progressed leaps and bounds--starting with a series of workshops in January/February, then an amazing week where I took 22 yoga classes in Venice, and I made the somewhat spontaneous decision to start yoga teacher training which I finished a few weeks ago.
While this has been a year that I've grown as a person, it's also been a year when I've realized that I've grown apart from people. I've spoken with one member of my own family on one occasion this year. Many of my college friends have had their first (or second, or fourth) children--and we just relate to different things at this point. Other friends have just drifted for no good reason at all.
So, I'm letting myself have a little moment. I'll be better tomorrow.
And in the meantime, I'll keep reminding myself: I love my life and I have nothing to complain about. Even if I'm a little blue today.