Today was one of those days where I tried to hit the ground running and instead I tripped and fell out of the start gate and ended up getting my face stomped into the mud. There's no one thing that happened today, but I just feel down. Defeated. Tired.
I've hit the Doldrums.
And what's even more irritating is that I feel bad about feeling down because really, I'm feeling down over nothing. I have a lot to be grateful for in my life. I really, truly have been happier in the past year than I was for most of the last decade. I've lived through bigger, badder things and come out on the other side, and the little things today really shouldn't defeat me.
So I've been trying to keep happier mantras in my head.
"I am grateful for what I have and I have nothing to complain about."
"No one can make you feel inferior without your consent." ~Eleanor Roosevelt
For pete's sake, a week ago I taught a pretty awesome yoga class on enlivening your personal power and self-concept... and how being yourself and knowing you you are allows you to be free.
I'm hoping this is kind of like the time that Snoopy stopped dancing--not because he wasn't happy, he was just tired. (I really wish I could find particular clip or strip I'm thinking of.)
Unfortunately, for today, it just feels like I'm putting on a happy face but not really feeling it in my heart. So here I sit. Consenting to allow other people to make me feel small. Hanging on to the little things I need to let go of. Reading more into things than I probably should.
Sometimes living your yoga is really effing hard.
Here's hoping tomorrow is a better day.